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Hi to whoever reading this blog. I know its been dead for sometime. Well I don’t want to say reasons because I’m practically living in a loop right now. Loop involves me feeling bad for the current situation I’m in and me trying to get out of it but saying reasons for not doing anything to get out of this and again feeling bad because I’m saying reasons. I know u guys will think I’m mad but maybe few can relate to me. I want to work hard study well and reach a good place but say reasons for not finding time to study in the first place. I figured out why I’m like this and did something to deal with it. Here’s the story. Last Friday night I was extremely stressed because I had to do some work and I was not able to do it because I was freaking out and my brain practically freezed. I decided to shut my system down and try relaxing but seeing texts from ppl who were in need of this work was freaking me out. So I decided to work over the weekend. But here’s the thing I understood no matter h...

I’m fond of making plans everyday. Study plans, trip plans, outing plans with friends etc.. Few things happen the way I plan, few don’t. Last plan I made was a big one regarding how to settle down in life and what to do with my career. I made this plan after my plans of becoming a doctor went into drain because of few reasons and in 4 th  sem of clg I decided to prepare for placements. But my crazy brain came up with an idea. I dint go on to become a doctor because there was lot of money involved with the admission process because I got 10 marks less than the expected score so I was pissed of and was not willing to spend lakhs just because of few marks. One more reason is I dint want to spend soo much for UG. My brain decided to invest this money for my higher studies->MS abroad. I started preparing for GRE and TOEFL and cleared those exams. I applied to universities. I opted out of placements because I wanted to concentrate on these things. Everything was cool until something h...

THE BEGINNING I was freshly out of school and was excited like most of the people about the fake idea I had in my mind regarding college life cheers to the movies I watched and imagined these things. One of the main catalyst was the extreme amount of pressure I dealt with 12th board exams which made think “Haapaa finally I’m going to college I don’t have to study hard anymore.” This is what I got wrong. After this imagination let’s get to the part were I finally selected PSGiTech. I’m from salem so I had to stay in hostel and I was more happy about this because I will finally be independent. We had to choose a number from a bowl and fate decides our room mates. Luckily I got two sweet ones. Everything was fine till this. REALIZATION I waited for 4 months and nothing happened. I started feeling school was more liberal about the timings. We had classes from 8:45 am to 4:30pm and each lecture was 50mins long. The staffs in charge for next hour were waiting 10mins prior the bell rang. Staf...

  I previously owned a moto g6 for the past two years and recently I started seeing flicker in the phone which was like lightning so I decided to get a new one.  I was confused because I dint want to spend much and want to use the same phone for a long time but people who know me will know how bad I'm with smartphones as I lost two phones to water damage before moto g6 out of which one is oneplus3 and I was heart broken after that and decide to spend not more than 10k on a phone. Why I got an iPhone? I wanted a phone which can last for a longtime and have updates. I'm currently working as an iOS dev so an iPhone would be better. I was left with two choices either to get a 20k android phone for better specs which can last long or spend little more and buy an iPhone because there was flipkart sale (iPhone SE 2020 was around 27k-30k). But the problem is SE dint have a good battery and I finally decided to get iPhone XR which was 40k and after applying credit card discounts and ex...

Hi guys. The question is really simple and the answer to it as well. Yes money is pretty much important. There are other philosophy that says money can't buy happiness but what I believe is lack of money can put you into lot of trouble because you need to pay ur bills and if you want things which require capital like a own house... Being able to afford everything you dream is a separate kind of joy but what we need to remember is the process of making money is going to require hard work. If you enjoy the process by doing something you love meanwhile making money out of it then everything is good in life. So don't live in the misconception that money is not important because as important it is to have love/emotions to stay alive so is money as lack of it can bring unnecessary trouble unless you prefer to live in a forest eating fruits on the branches of trees like Tarzan

  You can see sadness dripping on my face from the picture. This story happened when my mom's brother got married. Let's get into detail about this. 5 days before the wedding, we went for shopping. I picked up a pretty dress and bought shoes which were pink in color with white stones and I loved it. A day before the wedding there was a small function and certain rituals and I had shoulder-length hair which looked cute on me. The very next day we had to reach the venue by 11am. Mom was busy and stayed at Grandma's place. I stayed with dad in our house and he took me to a barbers shop who cut my hair into what u see in the picture. As soon as I reached the wedding hall, everyone started saying your daughter had pretty hair why did u chop it off and that made me very sad. I ignored it as I was happy in my outfit and went to play with the kids in the wedding hall. I removed my shoes and hid it under a small table covered with a table cloth so that it remains safe. Then I played...

  Let’s go back in history to 2002 to know about this story. I was 4yrs old and my parents told me I used to whine about not having anyone to play with and used to sleep with a lot of toys. A year later I had a baby sister. I was extremely happy and excited and kept running around and told all my school friends about my sister. But she used to sleep all day as she is a newborn and the 5yr old me was pissed off and tried to wake her up from sleep for which my mom screamed at me Let’s go to the fun part where she used to do everything I did and it irritated me a lot after she grew up a little bit. She chose the same ice cream flavor I did and sat on the same chair I used to sit but she never watched the same tv shows I used to watch. I loved Mr.Bean and Jackie chan but she liked Chhota Bheem and Dora and we had never-ending remote fights. Now we all grew up and became busy with our lives. I went to the hostel after school and still continue to stay out in the hostel for work and for ...